Friday, March 25, 2011

2nd Ultrasound!!

I can't believe yesterday was the 2nd ultrasound already! The baby is doing great.  His (her?) heartbeat was 173 and he was moving all over. That was so neat to see. I wasn't expecting to see much movement at this stage but he was wiggling all over...it was incredible :)  I can't wait to actually feel the movements!! He measured at 8wks 5 days which is perfect because we're actually 8wks 3 days as of yesterday. I will probably hear from the IVF Specialist today and most likely will be scheduling another ultrasound for 2 wks from now. I am really looking forward to that one because the parents will be coming up for that...I can not wait for them to see their lil pumpkin for the first time on ultrasound...I don't think there will be a dry eye in the room! I know they are so super excited about their  baby but the moment they see their lil one moving around it will become more of a reality. I know for myself it's so hard to believe sometimes that there really is a little life growing inside of me so I can not imagine how it must be for the parents.
By now I know I have told so many people about this journey and it's funny how everyone has the same question "Are  you gonna be ok giving the baby up?".  I do understand why they ask that, I think it's just natural to wonder that. But each time I hear that I kinda chuckle inside....I would NEVER give up my baby...but .this is not my baby!!!  I am merely taking care of someone else's baby for a short time. Just as at work I take care of someone else's child.....and when I used to babysit I took care of someone else's child....it is just temporary though. And yes, every child I have ever cared for I have loved in some way (yes, some I get more attached to than others)...but that's ok. It's ok to care for and love someone else's child. So, when I get asked that question "Are you gonna be ok giving the baby up?" it strikes me as a little weird. I'm not giving up a baby...it's not my baby...I'm just giving back a child that needed me to care for  him for a little bit. And yes, I will be ok :)  

Sunday, March 13, 2011

First Ultrasound!!

I have been wanting to post since Wed. night but unfortunately my internet service has been down...I've been going through internet withdrawal!!  Anyway, Wed. was our first ultrasound and we saw one beautiful baby with a perfect heart rate in the 120's. Thank you, Jesus!!! What a miracle!! To see that lil heart just beating away  made me cry. God is so good and to know that he has this lil life growing inside of me is just so surreal. T&J have been waiting so long for a child and have been through so much heartache that I am just so thrilled that they will finally be parents. And to think that God chose me to help with this miracle!! I can not express how that makes me feel. I feel so blessed to be able to be a part of this.
The IVF Specialist likes to do ultrasounds every 2 wks in the beginning....another reason to love this doctor!! So, I  am so lucky to be having another ultrasound in a wk and a half (at 8wks) and then another one at 10wks. And then around 11-12 wks the IVF specialist will release me to my OB. Which at that point I won't be having many more ultrasounds but then I have other things to look forward to...like feeling the baby kick which I am hoping will be around 14-15 wks (thats when I usually  start feeling movements).....then at 20 wks we should be having the detailed u/s to check all organs (and of course the sex!!). So...we have so many little milestones to look forward to. And as much as I enjoy being pregnant and don't want to rush this too much...I can not wait for the day T&J welcome their baby into this world. I  have a feeling the next 33 wks are going to go by pretty fast!!!  I know they are anxious to find out if it's a boy and girl..and so am I :) Of course, I keep thinking it's a boy... but I was wrong with all of my babies so we shall see about this one. I am usually good at predicting the sex of my friends babies so maybe I'll be right with this one:) 
Ok..well I have to run to go pick up my daughter..she went to her dads for the weekend. Will try to post soon. Please keep the prayers going that this lil one continues to get big and strong...thank you!!  :)

Sunday, March 6, 2011

3 more days to go!!

So...in only 3 days we will know how many!!! I am so glad  my little ones have kept me so busy this week cause the week went by so fast.
Alex, my  3 yr old, has developmental speech apraxia. He receives speech therapy 3 times a week. Back in the fall one of his therapists referred him to an ENT because she was suspecting he has velopharyngeal insufficiency. In a nutshell, his soft palate does not close properly during speech therefore, he speaks very nasally. He had an eval done in the fall and went back for a follow up on Wed. He met with the speech therapist that specializes in this, then went for a videofluoroscopy. That was pretty cool..he thought he was "making his own movie" :)  After the test we met with a group of many different doctors and the recommendation was to go ahead with surgery. So we are looking at either April or May for surgery. We spent pretty much all of Wed at the hospital.
Friday, Alex and Aiden pretty much attacked Mikey (my 14 yr old step-son) when he got home from school. All three of them were on the floor being boys. I don't know why boys always have to be so physical!! Well, all of a sudden Mikey rolls over and starts crying. I'm thinking he's just playing around with the boys. A few minutes go by before I realized he wasn't joking. He rolled over and there was blood everywhere, coming out of his ear. Well, Aiden had a thermometer in his hand when they were wrestling and somehow managed to shove it in his ear. So...we took a trip to the ER. And luckily, after suctioning his ear out they were able to tell that the abrasion was to the side of his ear drum. That could have been so much worse, had it penetrated his ear drum!!
Liz, my 15 yr old, took off for Florida on Thursday with the  band and chorus. They performed at Univeral Studios on Friday and they will again tomorrow. So..I was left this weekend with a house full of boys. Us girls are always out-numbered but with her being gone it was 5 to 1 :(  It's not easy being around so much testosterone..can not wait for her to come home!!!
So..as you can see this week was a little busy...thank goodness. I am so looking forward to the ultrasound and am happy that I haven't had a lot of time to just sit and think about it. I know on Wed. this pregnancy will become more of a reality. I  have been feeling so good..other than extreme fatigue..that although I know that I am pregnant it isn't quite reality at times.  I had taken so many tests a few wks ago..and all of my betas were great...but still, when I see the lil heartbeat or two on Wed. that is when I will really BELIEVE!! With all of my pregnancies that is the moment that it is reality. I  mean, I know that God is with us through this journey...and I believe with all my heart that things are going to go well...but it is so hard to believe that there is a life (or two) growing inside of me and when I see them on ultrasound that will be the  moment when I know for sure they are with me!! And I know the tears will be rolling down my cheeks. I can not wait for that moment. This is such a miracle that I am allowed to be apart of and I am so grateful that God is allowing me to do this. I want so much for T& J to be parents....please, Lord...watch over their baby(ies) and let them grow big and strong!!!