Monday, February 28, 2011

One or Two????

I can't believe it's been a week since I posted. I have attempted several times to get on here and update but it seams something always prevents it.....sometimes it's my fatigue...sometimes its' the kids..... but glad I'm finally sitting here to fill ya in on the last week.
Things have been going wonderfully. Last Wed I went for my 2nd beta and was thrilled when I received a call from my IM to inform me it went from 252 to 641!!!  I was at the dentist with my kids and couldn't resist answering the phone when I saw who it was calling :)  All I kept thinking was...twins, twins..TWINS!!!!!!  I briefly filled in the dentist on this amazing journey we are on and she was in tears...and then I had to proceed to fill in a few other ladies there on our journey...everyone is so excited.
Friday was the 3rd beta and it was 1296..Yayy..another great number!! My progesterone has been running in the 70's and 80's...which is great. The IVF Specialist normally checks 4 to5 betas...however, the nurse told me on Friday that the doctor is very happy with all of my results and doesn't feel it is necessary to repeat the beta again. He said  the next step is an ultrasound...which is scheduled for March 9th. This is bitter-sweet. I am thrilled that my #'s are good enough that he doesn't feel we need to repeat it...BUT, I have been enjoying getting my betas done and watching them go up...and being reassured every 2 days that the baby(ies) are doing well. So now, we have to wait til the u/s. It is going to be so hard waiting til then!!!
Other than the fatigue and frequent peeing at night..I am feeling great. I know with my own pregnancies I was blessed to not have any morning sickness..or any complaints really. With 2 of my pregnancies I did have nausea for a few months but as long as I ate small meals frequently I was ok. I wasn't sure how this pregnancy would go..but so far so good. I know this is still early yet, but I so far I'm feeling great!!
Well I am hoping the next 9 days go by real fast. I can not wait to see how many lil pumpkins are in there. I  have been obsessing over reading about beta and progesterone levels and reading what other womens levels are...not that any of this will help me to know what we're having but it's so exciting reading about it and wondering what are chances of twins is. If I see one strong heartbeat in 9 days I will be crying my eyes out...I will be so overjoyed to see the lil miracle inside of me and to know that finally my IP's are going to be parents. But, if theres two...wow, I just can't imagine.  I know my IP's and I feel the same way, we will be so happy with one miracle, but two would be that much more amazing.
Well, my lil ones are needing mommy..gonna go make breakfast. For now, hoping the next 9 days go by fast..and praying these lil miracles are nice and safe in my womb.

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

BETA #1

Yayyy...it is official...WE ARE PREGNANT!!!
I awoke yesterday to 6"of snow...normally I would be happy to see that, but all I could think about was that I HAVE to go the hospital for my BETA (quantitive HCG) and I was not going to allow that white stuff to get in the way of that!! I had planned on heading out early for that but the roads were horrible so I needed to wait til it cleared up. The morning was torture. I was so extremely nervous...and I was surprised by that. I wasn't the least bit nervous the day of the transfer (just very excited)....but yesterday I was so nervous!! When the roads finally cleared up I headed out and then had to wait for what seamed like an eternity to get the results. I couldn't think of anything but the test...having all 4 kids at home you think I would've been able to keep myself distracted but  nope...I could not focus on anything at all. Time seamed to stand still. My IM and I kept texting each other and were both so eager for the results. Then finally my IM called and had just received the result.............252!!!!!!!!!!  Thank you, Jesus!!! That is an awesome number!! I was on the phone with her jumping up and down....and all I kept saying was 252?? 252?? I just couldn't believe it..and I was so relieved to get such a great number. So, now our next question is: how many??  With that number it could be one or two. The doctor likes to repeat the BETA four or five times. The number needs to double about every 48hours..that is an indication of a healthy pregnancy. So..tomorrow I will be going for another BETA...and praying it at least doubles. Most likely in about 2 wks we will have an ultrasound..then we will find out how many decided to stick around:)
Last night by 6:00 I was exhausted..and had to fight to stay awake. I had every intention on getting on here and updating everyone but all I wanted to do was sleep. Alex (my 3 yr old) kept asking  me to give him a bath...normally I would  jump on that! He is the one that I usually have to fight to get into the tub..and here he was begging for a bath. I tried everything to distract  him and change his mind but  he had his  mind on taking a bath! Feeling guilty about this, I reluctantly gave him a bath...then was on the couch with both lil ones just shortly after 8:00. I can not believe  how tired I've been lately! I woke up several times to go pee but for the most part slept ok. I can't stop rubbing my belly and praying that these lil ones stay nice and safe in there til October.  Our due date is (unofficially) Oct. 31st....so T&J are going to have Halloween babies!! I can not wait til that glorious day when they welcome their babies into the world.  Until then, I am going to take care of them to the best of  my ability..and continue to pray. I know there are so many people praying for these lil pumpkins....and I know that God is awesome. I pray He lets them grow big and strong until they are ready to meet their parents. I am so happy that God put us (my IP's and I)  together..and is allowing us to be on this amazing journey together.  I look forward to the next 8 months.....what an awesome year this is going to be! Ok...well I'm gonna run...next BETA is tomorrow and I will try my hardest to update then :)

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

Pos HPT :)

Thank you, Thank you...THANK YOU, LORD :)  
Yesterday I was extremely tired all day...about 8:30 I went to bed(which I never do) . I awoke at 11:30 to go pee (which I have been doing the last few nights..a good sign!!)...knowing that I would be POAS (peeing on a stick) in the morning I thought maybe I could just test now...it's almost morning (kinda). So I went ahead and.......saw a very faint positive line!! I was so excited...I started rubbing my belly and thanking my IP's babies for deciding to stay around....and of course thanked God a million times!!! Then I just stared at the stick for probably 10 minutes to make sure I was really seeing a pos line...it is real faint and I was so afraid my eyes were playing tricks on me!! After awhile I decided there definitely is 2 lines and I couldn't stay in the bathroom all  night  looking at the stick so I finally went back to bed. I just lie there for hours thinking of all kinds of happy baby thoughts for my IP's. My  husband woke up at some point and I was so happy to tell him that T&J are going to be parents :) Yayyyyy!!!  When my hubbie got up for work I prepared the PIO shot (progesterone in oil) for him to give me (as he has for a few wks now, and he's really good at it!)...then I couldn't wait to show him the stick. He confirmed there is 2 lines!!! I couldn't wait to Congratulate my IP's. They are so excited!!! I know that things will be more definite  next Monday when I have my first BETA done...but still, that little faint line is a sign that one or two lil ones decided to stay for a while!! I keep praying that God allows both of them to stay for at least 8 more months!! I can not wait for that day that they are able to finally hold the miracles they have been praying for and dreaming about for so long now :)  <3

Monday, February 14, 2011

Transfer went well !!

I can't believe the transfer has come and gone already...and now the dreaded "2WW". Everything went very smooth. My husband and I flew to Michigan thursday morning, we were so thankful the storm we had been worried about all week missed us. We were so afraid the weather was going to give us a hard time like it did our first trip to Michigan. When we arrived at the hotel I had a beautiful boutique of flowers awaiting me..my IP's are so sweet!! The boutique was beautiful :)  I was so happy Friday morning that the day we had been waiting for was finally here...and surprisingly I wasn't nervous...I felt such a sense of peace and joy. I brought a bible with me on our trip and did a lot of reading...I brought it with me to the transfer and as I read I prayed that God bless my IP's with the gift of life. When we arrived at the clinic a nurse went over a few things with me then gave me ibuprofen and valium. Just a short time later I went into their "OR" and was prepped for the transfer. The doctor came in and gave me pics of the embryos...they are beautiful!! They were graded 4AB and 3AA...which is excellent. The transfer only took a few minutes....they took a pic immediately after the transfer so I could see the embryos in my womb." Lord, please let them find a home in there for 9 months"  is what I kept praying over and over. I talked to my IM as soon as I was out of the OR. We were both so thankful that everything went well. Later that day as I was looking at the pics of the embies I asked my husband if he noticed anything about the one on top and he said...yes, there is a smiley face! Ok, so I'm not crazy!!  The first thing I noticed when I looked at the pics real closely was that toward the bottom of the first embie there appears to be a perfect little smiley face...I know that sounds crazy but it's there!! I definitely think God  had something to do with it <3  I have showed several people and everyone sees it...I'm hoping it's a message from God that everything is going to be ok with them!!  :)  So, the rest of the day friday and on saturday I didn't do much but watch tv and read.  And of course, rub my belly and talk to my IP's babies and asked that they please stay with me for the next 8 or 9 months.
Sunday we flew back home. I was so happy to be with my kids...I really missed them!  But it was very relaxful being away..and I am so happy that the transfer went well...and I can not wait for a BFP (big fat positive...preg test). Last night I had a dream that I had an u/s done and both lil ones looked perfect....Lord, please let  that be the case!!!
The last few weeks I have been looking for the perfect gift for my IM....something that she could wear during the pregnancy to give her hope and keep  us connected throughout this journey. I looked at so many different stores and could not find what I was looking for. I had wanted to send it before the transfer so she would have it for that day but I just couldn't find the right gift. So today...knowing I was going to be mailing the pics of her embies...I went to Arrowhead Christian store and said a prayer that God help me to find what I am looking for (although I wasn't quite sure myself). And sure enough I found it :)  So I sent that along with the pics....I can not wait for her to receive it. And I hope when she looks at it  that it reminds her of God's love and gives her strength and hope to trust in Gods plan...I pray that he gives her the gift of life :)
I can not wait to start testing Wed.  I know there are so many people praying for these 2 lil ones...please, Lord, let them get big and strong!!!  Their mommy and daddy have been waiting for so long for them!!

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

Two more days to go!!

 I can not believe the transfer is only two days away!!! I am so excited  :) My bags are packed and I'm ready to go!! We fly out tomorrow morning and am scheduled for the transfer at 11:15 friday morning...flying back Sunday. As I was packing my bags this morning I put a lot of thought into what I want to wear Friday...I decided on a green sweater (green's a lucky color)...and I bought a pair of shamrock socks the other day that I want to wear. Yes, I probably sound a  little crazy right now...lol... I know it does not matter what I do or wear Friday...that God will determine if I am going to carry T&J's babies or not...but right now I am looking at getting positive thoughts and feelings from wherever I can !!!  I started this journey on a very high note...and want that to continue. It is very important to me to be as stress-free and as positive as I can in this journey.
There are so many wonderful people excited about this journey and praying for my IP's, and if you are reading this and are one of those people, THANK YOU!!  I know it's all in Gods hands and I don't know what He has planned, but I can only pray that He gives my IP's what is in their heart. I am so full of excitement and joy right now. I believe with all my heart that this is going to happen :) 
I have had so many dreams over the last few weeks of the actual transfer, and of seeing pics of the 2 beautiful embies!! I can not wait to get my first positive hpt  next week!!  Will try to post something Friday after the transfer...I am hoping to have better luck with the hotels computers than I did last time we were there...if I'm not able to post I promise  Sunday or Monday to update you!!!

Friday, February 4, 2011

A week til Transfer!!!

Yayyy!!! I'm so excited :)  Yesterday I had another ultrasound and more labs. The ultrasound measured my lining to be 11mm....and what is desirable is anything over 8, so that is great news! Today I rec'd a call from the IVF clinic that everything came back perfect and we are definitely on for Feb 11th. So, my hubbie and I quickly booked our trip. We are flying out at 5:35 Thursday morning and returning Sunday afternoon. The IVF clinic would like me on bedrest Friday and Saturday.....their recommendation was to not travel back home til sunday. So...we are all set to go :)   I can not believe how fast time seems to be going...but I dread the "2WW" (2 wk wait). I have to go on the 21st for my first BETA (quantitative HCG...to see if I'm pregnant)...but there's no way I will be able to wait til then so I'm stocking up on home pregnancy tests. Probably on the 16th I will start testing.....but even waiting til then is going to be torture!!  I want so badly for my IP's to finally be parents...and I really believe it's going to happen :)  So, for now just praying, praying, Praying!!! Hopefully the two lil embryos they implant next wk will stay around for 9 months and my IP's will be blessed with healthy twins in late October...I know this is all in God's hands....and I hope that this is what He has planned for them:)