Saturday, January 29, 2011

So I woke up this morning thinking about how awesome God is.  A few  months ago I didn't know what I was looking for in my IP's. All I knew was that I wanted to help a couple by bringing a miracle into the world for them. A couple that I'm sure has been through more heartache than I can ever imagine. It would be a wonderful experience for me. But God knew EXACTLY what my heart really wanted (although I did not yet know)...and He gave me exactly that. He did not want me to go through this journey with just anyone...he picked the PERFECT couple....for He wanted me to experience this journey to the fullest.So, I thank you Jesus..for you knew what I wanted before I ever knew. God is so amazing!!!!
So...I started my meds on Thursday and WOW...I had killer headaches all day. Maybe it was a coincidence but chances are it was the meds. I thought I was going to experience headaches for the next few months...but knew some how I would get through it...T&J's babies (or babies-to-be) are always on my mind and that would help get through the headaches....but I am so happy to say that the headaches were gone yesterday. :)  And today I am feeling great. I'm taking care of my body as if I were pregnant. Drinking lots of water, eating well,etc.  However..I am allowing myself one cup of coffee in the morning. I do plan on cutting that out completely soon :(  I think it's very important to get my body prepared for a pregnancy as best I can. I want the perfect home for T&J's babies :)  I'm looking forward to next Thursday...getting the OK to proceed with the transfer on Feb 11th.  That day will be here so soon!!  I'm saying so many prayers for my IP's.....if everything goes well they will have their lil miracles around Halloween time :)  And guess what?  My IM has 3 friends who are expecting right now!!!! Wouldn't that be awesome for her to have her babies at the same time as 3 of her friends??? God is so good...and after all the heartache my IM has had over the last 10 yrs....it would be awesome for  her to have her miracles now...and to be able to share something so special with her friends. God does have a plan for everyone...and I pray that it is His plan for her!!!  Well...gonna run..my 2 little ones need me...will keep  ya posted :)

Thursday, January 27, 2011

Start of Meds :)

Tuesday I went for my baseline ultrasound and labs. I was told my lining is very thin....and that is exactly what they wanted to see! My labs were also perfect...soooo....I was given the ok to start meds today :)  I am taking Estradiol 2mg three times a day, and Vivelle 0.1mg patches. The patches are applied to my lower abdomen and changed every other day. I will continue on these until further notice. Starting on Feb 6th I will be taking daily progesterone in oil injections (I've heard these are no fun...and leave nasty bumps on your butt for months). But I'm so excited to get things going finally. Next Thursday I go back for another ultrasound and at that point my lining should be much thicker. I will also have lab work to make sure the meds are working and my hormone levels are higher. When all of that comes back good then we will know that on Feb 11th  we can have 2 beautiful embryos transfered. My body should be ready to be the home for T&J's babies for 9  months :)  I am so excited about things...I bought a few early pregnancy tests yesterday. I figured I should start stocking up on them! I know I am going to be very impatient about waiting to know and expect to be taking lots of tests!!! With  my own babies I have always had high HCG levels and tested positive early so I am probably going to test about 5 days post transfer...and from what I've read from other women with a 5 day transfer, it is common to get accurate results that early. So, in 3 weeks from now I should know if T&J are going to be parents finally. I can not wait for that day. They are always in my thoughts and prayers...I don't care what it takes to help their dream come true...I will do whatever I can and God willing in about 9 months they should be welcoming their lil miracles into this world. What an amazing day that will be....and for the next 9 months that will be in my heart and mind. God is so good and I pray he blesses them in this way.

Thursday, January 20, 2011

    In only 3 weeks my husband and I will be traveling to Michigan for the transfer...yayyy!!!!  Time is just flying by! Next Tuesday I go for my baseline ultrasound and blood work....then Thursday I start my meds :) I'm looking foward to that....to getting my body ready for T&J's babies!!! I thank God every day that he helped me find my IP's ... I can not wait for that moment that they hold their baby(ies) in their arms for the first time...and all the heartache they have had is gone and they are filled with the love and joy in their hearts that they so deserve :) God is so good and I am so honored that He has allowed me to be a part of their miracle! Thank you, Jesus!!!
   Being on different surrogacy websites I see so many other women who are painfuly experiencing infertility also.....it is so heart-breaking.  So I am saying extra prayers for all women going through this. I found a prayer on http://www.2heartsnetwork.org/pregnant.htm that I would like to share:

         Blessing for the Conception or Adoption of a Child
The Lord is faithful in all His words and holy in all His works.
The Lord lifts up all who are falling and raises up all who are bowed down.
The eyes of all look hopefully to You, and You give them their food in due season; You open Your Hand and satisfy the desire of every living thing.
The Lord is just in all His ways and holy in all His works.
The Lord is near to all who call upon Him, to all who call upon Him in truth.
He fulfills the desire of those who fear Him, He hears their cyr and saves them. The Lord keeps all who love Him, but the wicked He will destroy.
May my mouth speak the praise of the Lord, and may all flesh bless His Holy Name forever and ever.
-- Psalm 145:13-21
God, our Creator, by Your love the world is filled with life, through Your generosity one generation gives life to another, and so are Your wonders told and Your praises sung.
We look to You in our love and in our need: may it be Your will that we bear (adopt) a child to share our home and faith.
Loving God, be close to us as we pray to love and do Your will. You are our God, nourishing us forever and ever. Amen.


Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Chapter One :)

And so my story will begin...a new chapter in my life. What I am sure will be one of the most amazing times in my life. It has always been in my heart to help a family member or friend by being a surrogate mom if the opportunity came up.The opportunity never did.  A few months ago a seed was planted in my mind and heart. I started to research surrogacy and contacted a few agencies. In the mean time I prayed...I prayed alot!!! I asked God to let me know if this is what he wanted for me and if so to help me find the right couple. In November I met the most caring, sweetest couple ever :)  I knew after we met they were the right couple! And God has told me in so many little ways that this is what He wants. So in December my husband and I went to the IVF clinic and had some testing done...passed everything with an A plus the doctor said! So we have a transfer date of Feb 11th....I am so excited! I decided not long ago that I am going into this journey not focusing on this from a medical angle but from a spiritual angle. I really believe that God is with me and the IP's ...and He brought us together for one reason....to give this beautiful couple the miracle(s) they have been dreaming of for so long...and that He will be with us each step of the way. The last few years I have not been involved in a church...I prayed at times but was not where I wanted to be spritually.  But since deciding I want to pursue being a surrogate my life has changed in so many ways. My family and I are now active in a local church and I feel so much closer to Him than I ever had.
Anyway...29 more days til the transfer...I don't know who is more excited the IM or myself!!!  I'm saying lots of prayers and crossing my fingers that all goes well. Well...I do need to run...my 3 yr old is needing mommy and dinner needs to get started....will return soon :)